It's the start of the long weekend... bugger! forgot to put the wine in the fridge AGAIN!

Seems no matter what I do I am going to die.

My dietitian rang today and told me that my recent blood tests were all good except my homocystine level... had never heard of this before so she told me about it a bit then I consulted Google of course.

Seems this stuff if it is elevated causes you to have corony heart disease. BUT apparently if you take Elevit and increase my Vitamin B intake I may be able to reduce this. Apparently it is normal to have a reading of between 5 - 15. I sit at 16 which sounds close to me but puts me at 3 X the risk. I wonder if my levels were even higher before I lost weight?

My cholesterol is good, sitting at 4.3. We don't use a lot of butter or eat fatty things and I try and eat a lot of good fruits and vegetables these days. We also use Rice Bran Oil spread instead of butter or margarine. I started using this when I decided to cut canola oil out of our diets. I love the taste of butter for cooking and using as a spread but it's a pain in the butt to have at a spreadable consistancy all the time so looked for an alternative. Found this and it has lots of antioxidents and the plant sterol gamma oryzanol, shown to help reduce cholesterol absorption.

It is the school holidays now for Easter and I have an extra one for the duration so mother of Six at the moment. Busy Busy days ahead. Was given a blow today when told by the Dept that the parents of one of my charges are putting in a formal complaint about my care of their child. Can't go into it but Dept did say that they have no question in their mind about the quality of my care and that they appreciate me as a quality carer but that they were giving me the heads up if it goes ahead next week... I've been dealing with these parents for near to two years and it never gets easier. I can imagine how angry you would be if your child was taken into care, I really can... but really they are clutching at straws as court is looming so I have to try and not take it all personally. Wish me luck with that won't you!

have had a busy day with a carer friend.. came home put little boy to bed as he was asleep and told gobble dock to have a rest ..

now Gobbledock has been annoying all afternoon keeping popping up out of bed... and the little boy unbeknowst to me had been painting his walls, body, toys and bed with SHIT!

Then to top it all off cat brought in a quail and house is covered in feathers and I had to go ask the man across the road to come and help,.. had to pull lounge room apart to catch the flaming thing ... once that was done I had to set to cleaning up the SHIT!...then baby came home...she's now crying on the floor as the big girl got her up for me and dumped on the floor.. great f**king help.. have bathed stinkarse boy and put him and Gobbledock in the playpen and just put the lounge room back together..

am waiting for another carer to bring some clothes over for the respite kid i have over easter.. then have to be presentable enough to get new girl off the kindy bus after her first day at kindy.. and to top it all off.. dept wont return my freaking calls and my caseworker just told me she has quit!

today sucks

Here is a photo for your enjoyment

Crikey Jingoes!!!

I've been told I need to start giving my blog some attention again. I will try but who knows how it will go.

I just read my last post and my wee little babe had returned home to her Mum, well she came back about two days after that and is still here now. Although now she is a beautiful happy and content little camper who is a pleasure to have around. We've just weaned her off being wrapped so firmly every sleep time. Was very apprehensive about that as she took being wrapped as a sign that it was sleep time and settled very quickly. But only three nights into being unwrapped and she is settled and sleeping well again. No one can wrap like I can and if she is to return home she needed to learn how to sleep unwrapped as she is over 8 months old now. She is still tiny, just coming out of 000 sized clothes, probably just hitting 6 kilos.

My little Rowdy girl has gone home about two months ago and on all accounts I've heard it is going okay. I have a new girl who is lovely and has been fun to be around. I also have a girl back who I moved on a year ago as she was a ratbag who was doing my head in! Circumstances has brought her my way again... and she is still doing my head in daily! I look at her and try and 'diagnose' her and I hit a brick wall each and every time. I think is she Autistic, .. no.. does she has aspergers?? No.. ADHD?? no.. PPD??? no.. who the heck knows! She's a little odd bod of her mother's drug and alcohol making that's for sure. Off to the peadiatritian with her in another months time and looking forward to talking with him about her.

My big girl has just changed medication and we are trialling Strattera. Relatively newish in the sphere of ADHD and it seems to be doing an okay job one week into the trial. it is good to only have to have one tablet a day. I don't know anyone personally who has a child on it or tried it and Dr Google isnt much help. Anyone give me any feedback on their success or failure with the drug would be greatly appreciated. She is doing well at school mostly and has some nice friends.

I am thinking forward another 18 months and seriously researching High School options for her. She wants to go to the all girls school that most of the girls at her current school will head but I'm not sure it's the best choice for her. There is a co- ed school nearby and it's looking promising but a newer school has caught my eye and it is actually moving location and will be closer to home and I think it is a bit stricter on behaviour and expectations so it may be the winner. It is a very hard choice!

Off to clean the kitchen for the night and fall into bed. Had a late night last night just looking at 'one more thing' on ebay, but I did restrain myself and did not make any purchases!!

Oh.. I've lost 42 kilos now!! am pleased with the progress - albiet slow it is steady